okay though if there’s anything that struck me on rewatching the first Cap movie it’s how much Steve and Bucky are such assholes to each other and it’s amazing
and like can you just imagine recovered!Bucky and Steve going on missions together and Steve being like
"wow Buck that thing you did there was actually kind of smart, all the stupid must’ve grown out in your hair"
and Bucky being all
"you might not know this, Steve, but there’s this thing we say these days that might be really useful for you to know and it goes like this: go fuck yourself"
and all the other avengers looking at each other like we read about you in history books, you are national heroes, what even
Will you shut the fuck up? We’re trying to watch TV.
This reminds me of Cait…
I’d totally have my horses in my house. In fact, I’m going to design a house that my horses can walk in and about. Hell. Yes.
This trapped animal look was awful. That’s not the Winter Soldier. That’s the scared little kid he turns into when he’s confused and in pain. Because the Winter Soldier is a machine. But when the scrap of Bucky that’s still in there starts banging around, the machine goes fetal and he just reverts to this child like thing.
And he knows there’s no help coming. There’s no extraction or exfil plan for the Winter Soldier. He gets himself out or he goes down with the ship. And he’s failed at his mission, so he’s probably expecting Steve to kill him here. He can’t understand why Steve saves him. He’s scared and he’s confused and he’s angry and he doesn’t like feeling any of these things because he doesn’t understand them at all and he liked it better when he didn’t have to feel them.
Oh god this hurts me on a fundamental level because I am convinced that Bucky never really stops wishing for the old days. Like, he comes back to Steve and Natasha and he is a person again, but when it gets intense and the nightmares are too much and he’s already called Sam three or four times to talk about it (because Sam doesn’t understand everything, but Sam knows how to talk to soldiers with PTSD and Bucky Barnes has got a RAGING case of it) he just wishes for Pierce to show up and put him in the chair and tell him it will be fine and just take it all away. Because being a thing is easy but being a person is too, too hard.
Winter Soldier (2012)
During the Cold War, there was a theory. That one agent, in the right place, at the right time, with the right skills, could be more effective than an army. It was the Cold War, after all, and that's how it was fought. In the shadows, behind enemy lines. I should know, I lived through it.
Rhodey for my 25 favourite superheroes project. 1 more week and hero to go until the set is complete.